B199. My Five Churches

 Today I added a fifth to my list of lifetime church memberships. I think of them as a continuum, each building on my spiritual formation, and each with special and distinct memories. I left each only because of physical relocation, or in one case, a denominational change, but each remains within me, and each one's unique gifts shaped and continue to mold my spirit.

Charity Baptist Church was my childhood church, the church I attended with my family every Sunday morning, Sunday evening, Wednesday evening, and any other time there as anything going on there. I loved singing children and youth group songs. I loved Vacation Bible School every summer, and youth weeks at Caswell and Ridgecrest. Sunbeams, Girls in Action, and Acteens set a strong foundational interest in missions.

Sparta First Baptist was my first church as an adult. Some of my favorite memories there are of my weekly small group that met in each other's homes, my MasterLife group, and leading a Hispanic ministry. It was from this church that I left for seminary.

Enon Baptist Church holds so may special memories - of leading a team to build houses in Honduras, serving as the first woman deacon in the 100+ years history of the church, preaching a couple of times when we were between pastors, serving on two pastor search committees, leading a singles ministry, and teaching Sunday School.

First Presbyterian Salisbury was to me a church of relationship, culture change, and healing. Special memories include: serving twice as an Elder, serving as a Stephen Leader and Stephen Minister, leading the 2019 Presbyterian Women's Retreat at St. Francis Springs, serving on the Pastor Search team and the Race & Justice Ministry Team, and Sunday School friends that will last my lifetime.

Today I officially joined Covenant Presbyterian. As I turn the pages of the church directory given to me in my welcome notebook today, I recognize very few names or faces, and I have no idea which ministries will call to me here. But they will, and the now-unfamiliar faces will soon become family.

B198. Christians and the War in Gaza

More than 60,000 Palestinians have been killed in Gaza, half of them women and children. This genocide is being enabled by many well-meaning American church-goers, who are being indoctrinated to think this is God's will. Dear Christians, we have to wake up, ask hard questions, and look to the teachings of Jesus, not of the church. We are being fooled and used for evil, and every day that we continue to follow blindly, more human beings are dying, grieving, and suffering.

We cannot singlehandedly stop this war or the many other evils closing in on us, but we can open our minds to the possibility that yes, entire Christian denominations have been corrupted and taken over by forces in stark opposition to all of Christ's life and teachings.

B197. Life, Chapter 10, Page 1

 

Tomorrow begins chapter 10 of my life. Yes, I do think in chapters: birth to school age, grades 1-8, high school, college, Sparta, seminary, WRHS, RCCC, retirement, and tomorrow will open page 1 of the Staunton chapter.

So many songs about change - probably because change can bring such a harvest of emotions. In the past two weeks I have packed all my material belongings in 100+ boxes, hauled 4 carloads of trash and recycling and 4 to Goodwill, sold 20+ large items on Facebook Marketplace, given items away to friends, and Habitat came to pick up some donations. Physically I have worked harder than I’ve worked since building houses in Honduras when I was 25 years younger. Emotionally I am the proverbial roller coaster. One day I’m whistling happy tunes with every packed box; the next, I’m heavy hearted with leaky eyes.

How I have loved my life in Salisbury. 33 years. 3 chapters. I have lived here longer than everywhere else added together. How I will miss my house: the Japanese maple I planted as a sapling, whose dramatic seasonal changes keep me awestruck; my quiet screened in deck where I sit at the edge of the woods communing with the cardinals, robins, wrens, and squirrels, and delighting at the red-shouldered hawk, barred owl, downy and red-bellied woodpeckers, and patter of rain on the tin roof. How I will miss my dear First Pres family: the loving relationships that have healed my soul, the special memories that will ever be a well of joy.

And how I will miss the physical nearness to the dearest friends imaginable - the walks in the park, the lunches, the tea times. Friends and family are forever. We will plan visits - to look for dolphins and herons; to eat Katana, Sabaidee, and LA Murph’s; to show you around my new town; and we will use phone calls, social media, and Facetime to stay close between visits. Please please please, all friends and family, plan your nearby travels to cut through Staunton and stop over - I will love that!

Chapter 10 is unwritten, blank pages without words or numbers. I go with a sense of excitement, as Staunton has been a beloved second home for some 21 years. I love the fresh mountain air, the view of the mountains from my new back deck, and the healthy eating options that cater to my food intolerances. Beyond that, God only knows. I will turn each page as it comes, try to live each moment, to fully be wherever I am. Where will I fit in my new church, in my new community? Which strangers will grow to be friends? What good trouble will I find? Chapter 10, page 1, tomorrow.

B196. Flag Day 2025

 

I pledge my allegiance to this flag, to the Democratic Republic the flag stands for. One nation, undividable, with equal freedom and justice for all people.

Are we pledging allegiance today to the country for which this pledge was written? Are we honoring and protecting its democracy? Are we one nation? Do we even want to be? Surely, we can no longer call ourselves indivisible, for we have indisputably allowed ourselves to be deeply divided, brother hating brother, because of made up labels we accept without questioning. And much deeper, our fight is between "liberty and justice for all" (all races, genders, political affiliations, orientations, heritages, religions, languages, economic and social status) or liberty and power (not justice) for one.

I wonder too, my friends, is it blasphemous to call ourselves a "nation under God" if we are fighting against all the "better angels" God instilled in us, and against the very words of the pledge we so love to recite. And dare we cry out "God, bless America" as we stand with a rock in our hand and hatred against our neighbor?

On this day that honors our beloved flag, I pledge allegiance to the country that lives in the pledge. May we join forces and stand together for its breath. Undividable. Before we no longer can.

B195. Memorial Day 2025

I used to tell my students: "We cannot understand freedom until we have lived without it." Friends, we are on a fast downhill fall toward that painful understanding.

Freedom of the Press means newspapers and tv news gatherers can tell us the truth of what's happening without being imprisoned or killed for it. Freedom of religion means people of any religion can gather without being imprisoned or killed for it . . .

 
George Takei posted yesterday: "This Memorial Day Weekend, the best way to honor the soldiers who gave the ultimate sacrifice is to honor and protect the freedoms and the democracy they died for."

Today we say we honor those who gave their lives for our freedom, but we deceive ourselves if we continue to vote against it . . . though voting is another freedom we could soon find ourselves without . . .

Remembering and honoring those who never made it home. Memorial Day 2025.

B194. A Poem of Refocus

 

When the load grows too heavy,

as often it does,

for I pick up and pick up

‘til unload’s a must,

I climb up the mountain

where vision is clear.

I choose what is mine,

what my own soul calls dear.

Then down I return,

more focused, and freer.

There’s work to be done,

now my sight’s again clearer.

#443

KV 4/3/2025

B193. Remembering Betty Fellows

When I came to First Presbyterian in 2012, knowing almost no one, one of my most welcoming and real connections was Betty Fellows. I had joined Betty’s Sunday School class, and we soon learned that we had the same birthday. She was 82, and I was, to the day, exactly 32 years younger. We called each other “my Birthday Buddy,” and every year, except for a COVID year or two when everyone was isolating, we celebrated together, sometimes just the two of us going out to lunch, other times other friends would join us. I often joked with her that we were twins, or that we were college roommates, because we attended the same college - also years apart.

Almost from the beginning, she would sit with me in worship, and I remember well my first Sunday of communion there. Before First Presbyterian, I had been visiting different churches, and it seemed that they all had their own distinct rituals of how communion was administered. Before the service started, I was feeling a little tense, not knowing what communion procedure to expect. Sitting beside me, Betty seemed to read my thoughts. She quietly explained to me that as we passed the communion trays to the person beside us, we said to them quietly “the body of Christ, given for you” and “the blood of Christ, shed for you,” so that everyone was served personally by someone, and everyone personally served someone else. It was a blessing to me to be served by Betty that day and many other days, and, when the tray came from the other direction, to get to serve her.

With others, we attended together Presbyterian Women Bible Studies, retreats, Church Women United gatherings, church meals and special events, and a weekly small group reading circle we called R4. I think the last time she was able to physically attend church was Ash Wednesday 2024. I picked her up at her house and she moved slowly with her cane. She shared several times how special that was, especially seeing the children getting their ashes.

Over the years, I became a regular at her house. She took me on the forest trails around her house. Sometimes we hiked. Sometimes she drove us in her golf cart, at first with her dog Sam running ahead of us; then in later years it was little Roscoe. She always showed me her flowers, in whatever season, and, both avid readers, we often talked about the books we were reading. Once when I was visiting, a bird flew inside her house, and the two of us scampered around closing doors to eventually get it back outside.

Oh, and she loved riding in my “cute little red car.” I took her to the park a couple of times, and once she arranged a visit to introduce me to Dot Swing, which was so special to me, as Dot's sister had meant so much to me in Greensboro years ago. And just while I knew Betty, she was a member of multiple reading groups, including one in Winston where, we came to realize, she knew my daddy’s twin cousins Nancy and Pat. She wanted to set up a visit for us all, but we never got around to making it happen.

Often she talked of her favorite memories of me: the women’s retreat I led in 2019, hearing me share my story in 2016, our 95th/63rd birthday when I brought a few friends and boxed lunches to her house to celebrate; and I’m not sure why, but she would laugh in delight at the memory of when I drove her to vote curbside, maybe just because it was a different way to experience voting. “Wasn’t that such fun!” she would say.

I only got to know Betty the last 13 of her 95 years, but she shared many stories with me, some repeatedly; like, when she lived in Durham and taught second grade. Her students were mostly African American, with one "Chinese girl" and one “little blonde boy.” Their classroom was at the end of the hallway, room 100, and she used to tell them that when they made it into the room, they had already made 100; and that the man who cared for the plants was the “plant manager.”

Betty was a PK (Pastor’s Kid), the daughter of a Presbyterian minister. Then she married a Presbyterian minister. They had three daughters, then grandchildren, and now there are great grandchildren. I’ve heard loving stories about every one of them.

Two days ago, as I entered Betty’s door, her face lit up as it always did. “You’re here!” she said, and she told me her breathing had been difficult all morning. “Kathy,” she said later in the visit, “is there anything in this room you’d like to take, to remember the day?” The day. She knew, didn't she. Before the next daybreak, she would be in another place.

Dear Betty, this morning the church learned of your passing. And we had communion. “The body of Christ given for you,” I could hear you saying to me as I wiped away tears. I'll catch up with you later, dear friend. Thank you for your forever imprint on my life.